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Look to God and Live

I am staying home sick today with a cold, which gives me a nice long time to write the thoughts I have had since a conversation with Andrew Goodman and Justin Benson last night. During our conversation, Andrew pointed out that I compare myself with others often.

He was right.

After thinking about it, I realized that when I compare myself with others, I look for ways in which they are failing, or in which I am doing better than they are. Realizing this deeply concerned me, because I want to be a positive, inspiring individual, who genuinely helps them as they strive to reach the goals of their lives. Secretly taking pleasure in the failures of others is not uplifting. It is antithetical to finding joy in their successes.

What is the underlying motivation that causes me to make these comparisons? I think the strongest reason is that it soothes the pain and guilt I feel when I am not living up to my own potential. Rather than actually addressing my own shortcomings and working to overcome them, I have fallen into the bad habit of rationalizing my actions as being good enough, because they are better than those of certain other individuals. This extends into many spheres of my life: spirituality, exercise, school, career preparation, work experience, and more.

I have made some resolutions that I hope will help me overcome this weakness as I go forward:

I promised Justin and Andrew that any time either of them catches me comparing myself to someone else, he can bring it my attention and I will give him a dollar. Hopefully that will help me gain a better sense of the magnitude of the problem, encouraging me to work more actively to suppress comments of comparison.

More importantly, I hope that this will help me become more conscious of the thought process that occurs when I compare myself to others. Being aware at any given moment that I am following a negative thought process will give me the opportunity to replace it with a positive thought process. As I replace negative, harmful thoughts with positive, uplifting thoughts of love and compassion, my words and actions will reflect my more enlightened inner state. I will become a happier, more considerate, more enjoyable person, who is more likely to follow the admonition of Paul to the Ephesians, as recorded in Ephesians 4:29:

Let no corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is good to the use of edifying, that it may minister grace unto the hearers.

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February 10, 2010 – 1:46 pm

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Hard work, diligence, and nobility of character

This blog post is in bulleted list form, because I do not have time to turn it into prose. You’ll get the idea, though.

Last night I set the alarm for 7 AM.
Realized at around 9 AM that I was consciously dreaming:
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Chandler, Coleman, and I were in a war zone (I am not sure if the aggressors were Nazis or Soviets).
Many people around us in a large field were killed, but we were not. We managed to escape and miraculously found a car.
Next scene: We are in an apartment, planning our escape to freedom. I ask them to be quieter, because of the threat of being discovered by the aggressors. I think that we might split up and meet back again somewhere in western Europe, but the idea is too scary (the image flashes through my mind of prisoners fleeing through the forest in the film Escape from Sobibor). We decide to attempt our escape together.
We are driving away from the city (Chan is driving, Coleman is in the passenger’s seat, and I am in the rear), and decide to pull over into an abandoned lot to pray before we carry out the escape.
After we pray, but before we drive away from the lot, a military policeman approaches the driver’s window.
The dream ends.
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I realize that I slept until 9 AM, and feel guilt for wasting valuable study time. I think of people who lived during the World War II years, people such as President Dieter F. Uchtdorf.
I marvel at the strength of character many people were able to build during that period of hardship. President Uchtdorf’s father, for example, went from civil servant to working long hours doing menial labor to keep his family fed and housed in exceedingly humble conditions. President Uchtdorf also worked hard to feed the family, by delivering newspapers on his heavy bike.
I think of getting up at dawn, working the whole day, and going to bed again after dark; our generation is very privileged.
During their long periods of trial, President Uchtdorf and his father refined their characters; they grew in discipline, ability to do hard work, and humility.
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By this point, I am enjoying the nice, warm water of the shower. How many people in the world cannot enjoy this simple pleasure? How many do not even have running water, or have only unsanitary water?
What else do I take for granted?
Am I building strength of character, like President Uchtdorf and his father did?
In times of war, people’s true character, intent, and desires come out. Those with evil hearts and wicked intentions act on those desires, taking advantage of lawlessness and anarchy. Those of noble intent grow and are refined in the heat of their trials.
What can I do to attain the strength of character to which they attained, despite the lack of such overwhelming physical trials?
I need character to know worthy goals to set for myself as I strive for a renewed sense of career and education direction.
I will need strong character to reach those challenging goals, once I have set them.
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Kneeling in my morning prayer, I asked Heavenly Father to bless me that I could be blessed with opportunities to build strength of character; that I could grow as diligent, hard-working, and humble as these noble men.